The reason why I cannot commit...




They say it’s like a roller coaster ride when you experience to love someone, thrilled to experience it, I rushed things.
I fell in love and gave myself to that person with all I got; they say that’s how you love. No one ever said it would be this painful, Yes. It is painful. I got scarred; shattered heart was left with me.
Now all I know is that I am scared. Frightened of what love might do to me again. Now I can’t see myself for that love again, I am broken. I need to be loved: That was what I believed.
I ask for justice for my broken heart, for the neglected love. I ask for revenge, for the endless night that tears we’re shed, where only my shadows are my witnesses. I ask for reasons for the time and effort taken for granted.
I am lost.
But then you came and made my heart race: beats fast  like it would blow up any minute, you put butterflies on my stomach; you made me think that love is something I should not be afraid of.
But, still I opted not to give in. I can’t and I won’t because I am scared, scared that you might be another lesson in love. I wanted to guard my vulnerable heart, fragile like a glass.
I am sorry that I cannot commit to the love and care, I am sorry for the doubtful heart I have, but please, don’t give up, this I silently ask from you.
Show me again that love is about trust, make me trust you.
I am not begging you but deep within this frail heart of mine, I hope that there is still one in a million chances that you wouldn’t care how reluctant this broken maiden to love again.
Be the one who will prove that falling in love might be painful but it can also be beauty beyond wonders.
So this I ask, give me reasons to commit again to this thing they called Love.

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